Macprincess’s Weblog

So tonight (Thursday), God revealed to me some new things.

He showed me that i am who i am, and i don’t need to try to be anyone else except myself.

I am different for a reason, He made me this way.

With that said, I am going to tell you what/who i am.

I am a woman of God…… NO! I am a  strong woman of God. I am a worshiper. I am beautiful. I am smart. I am a leader. I am His child. I am created for a purpose. I am new in Him. I am a disciple. I am filled.

It is so hard to put everything into words. It is like there is so much that He gave me i am going to explode.

I feel “whole”, like i didn’t think i was in-complete before, But now i feel this “whole-ness” that wasn’t there before.

I feel confident in who i am, and who i am becoming. That it doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks. I know i am where i am supposed to be with God, and i am following Him. Even if it means feeling left out some times. I know that in the end i am not left out, i am part of the biggest thing ever.

And God just keeps showing me this vision of me leading worship in front of a bunch of people, and His glory coming down.
I want that to happen so bad.
It’s like “How will this ever happen”, But God would never give me a vision of something that i couldn’t achieve. But i can’t do it alone, I need God for it to happen.
And i know one day that vision will come true.

God also took away my doubt that He could use me.
I knew He could use me in worship, But i wasn’t sure He would use me in any other way.
I figured that was my one gift, and somebody else had a different gift to use.
But tonight i just felt God saying “healing” and i wasn’t sure why.
I was like “ok, somebody is going to get healed tonight”.
Then PB said that God wasa giving someone healing to give to Annette,
well i was just thinking that God was telling me there was going to be a healing.
It wasn’t until no one else stepped up and said that’s me, that i realized “oh, Maybe God was giving me healing, DUH!!!”
It was so amazing to feel that God could use me in other ways also.

I feel more driven then ever to dive into His presence,
I want to see what else He has for me, and for other people.
I know God is not done moving in us.
This is just the beginning.

So i am going to begin to pray that God would begin to make that vision come true.
I know it will not just happen out of no where,
But it will be something to work up to.

I feel so free,
Free from all the past things that have held me back,
all those things that judged me when i would step out.
They don’t matter.
I am who God had created me to be!!

My dream……..

Is……….

To lead worship for thousands…..no…….millions of people.  I want to bring them all in to the presence of God, and experience Him in amazing new ways that they never knew they could.

I want to worship with complete freedom, Not caring what other people think, knowing that all that matters is that God is pleased with me, and my worship/love for Him.   I want to reach new levels of worship with God, every time that i worship.  I want to experience Him in knew ways.

I mean picture it (Imagine you are me)………….

You are in a stadium full of people, the place is packed, with people that are going strong after God.  There are a million eyes on you, But all that matters is God.  And you begin to sing, and the heavens open up, the love of God pours out like a tidal wave among the crowd, and then you begin to dance, and it is like you are 2 years old again, when you are dancing with all that you have in you, no caring that people are watching you, all that matters is that you are doing what is in your heart to do. And all of a sudden….. People begin to shout, and worship, and it is like the whole place is released, it is like chains are falling off of the room and the people, and the entire room is lifted into the clouds, And as the heavens release, people begin to sing new songs to God, not written songs, Songs that are in their hearts, songs that God has given them to sing. and then there is this silence, and peace, then you feel this wind blow, and the people start to sing a simple song, and as they sing the wind gets stronger, and as the wind gets stronger the people sing louder. And as the people sing louder and louder, God is moved, and the whole place falls under the power of God, people are healed, saved, delivered and forgiven. No one is ever the same again, they begin to go out and share what God is doing, and other people begin to fall under the power of God, until the entire nation has fallen under the power of God.   And it all began with worshiping our Father in heaven.

To some this may seem impossible, But to me, This seems very possible, God wouldn’t give me a dream that He couldn’t make happen, or help me make it happen.

All i have to say is….. Dream BIG!!  There is no reason to dream small, we don’t have a small God, We have a big God, So we should match our dreams to His size.

You guys might be thinking by now “man, this girl talks alot about God”,  But that is because God is my life, I try to do everything, for Him.

I love to worship Him, I can’t wait until Thursday when i get to lead worship, and praise God. I can’t imagine living life without Him by my side.

What if i didn’t have God? How would my life be? How would i have turned out? What kind of things would happen?   But i don’t have to worry about that, Because i am never going to live without Him. He will always be my Father/Saviour/Friend/Confidant.

I know i can always go to Him, and He will be there for me.  He always knows what i need, and what i need to hear.

Even if i don’t like the solution He gives me, It always turns out for the best.

Oh My Gosh!!!  I Hate Drama!!!!  Especially when it is in my own life.

It’s kinda funny…. Everytime things start to go right, something has to pop up and try to make things bad.

All i can do is laugh, It is funny the way the devil thinks he is going to distract me with stupid dramatic situations!

Why would i ever give in to the things he throws out there?  Maybe i would if i didn’t believe in God, and that He is always here to protect me, and He would never let me go through something i couldn’t deal with.

I am a strong woman, I will never allow something to distract me from the things of God, and the things He has for me.

God has put such a beautiful gift in my life…..Worship!     Why would i give that up???

He is bring me to such a beautiful level of worship, Where all things around me don’t matter, All that matters is that i am with my God, and i can express my love for Him.   I can’t even explain to you the place i am in with God, He has guided me through the hard times, Times when i wanted to quit and let it be someone elses problem, But through all those times of doubt and fear, He was always there with me, Helping me go where i needed to.   I made some stupid decisions, But He forgave me, And now our relationship is stronger than ever.

All i want to do is worship God, and lead others into His presence!!

WHAT A MIGHTY GOD I SERVE!!!

Well,

I am leaving in a month to go to europe, I am very nervous, I have never been on a plane before and i have never been away from home for 2 straight weeks. I am excited to go, I know God called me to go, and He is going to do great things while we are there. I just am nervous.

We are going to do music and drama, and the word, and helping them with their english. We are going to have so many opportunities to share the love of God with so many people, i want to make the most of every second that i have over there.

The worship team has been learning new songs, and they are doing awesome (for anyone who doesn’t know, i lead worship for my youth group). I hope they all react well to the music, and they get into it.

I am a little bit scared of the kind of food i am going to be eating, I am pretty picky about the food i eat, i don’t like any kind of sauce…ANY KIND!!! only pizza sauce. That may sound crazy to some people, but that is just the way i am.

I just pray God’s blessing over this trip…… You know what?! I am going to pray right now. Dear God, I just pray your hand of protection over every member of this team, God, We are going over there to do what You have asked us to do, We know You wouldn’t send us somewhere that we wouldn’t be safe. I speak against any kind of fear that enters anyones head, That fear is not of You, which means it doesn’t belong in us. I pray Your joy in everything we do, no matter how tired we are, how cranky or hungry, that we will see what You are doing in that situation, and the way Your spirit is moving. I pray for millions of opportunities to share You with others. I thank You for everything You are and all You do, Amen.

I don’t know about anyone else, But praying calms me, It makes me see the positive in the situation.

Brittney